You had already been going some time without lyrium. Re-introducing it to you... I don't think that's a better idea than what you were going through.
[ But she also isn't a Circle mage, never knew the true extent of lyrium poisoning or what it did to Templars. That was a side she had never delved into until entering the Inquisition. Had she been someone else, had she been a human or a Qunari, would this have changed how she felt?
She frowns. ]
She deserves that chance. Cassandra's worked hard for it, like anyone else. The Seekers can and will be something great with her guidance. I believe in her and the potential she can find.
[ Would she speak of that to Lavellan, though? ]
I will...try to talk to her. She seemed distant when I tried to speak to her in person and I'm afraid she doesn't trust me. [ Scratch that. She KNOWS Cassandra doesn't trust her. ] I hope that will change.
[ There's a pause, like she might hang up. But then-- ]
Cullen, do you think... Should I have been more demanding of the Inquisition? Should I have tried to be more authoritative with the troops or with the others or-- I don't know. More like an Inquisitor should be?
Perhaps we can encourage her to... find another way when she returns. ]
[ Not that he's one for insubordination. ]
I will... continue to try and put in a good word for you. [ That didn't help much, now did it. ] Think of it... perhaps as though you are starting again, and Cassandra is almost as she was after we'd discovered you in Haven. It will take time. But, Maker-willing, it will change.
[ It might even be worse, truthfully, given how little Cassandra seems to think of this "Adaar". ]
Truthfully? [ A pause as he think things through. ] There have been times that I've disagreed with the leniency you've given some. I would have not offered the rebel mages such lax terms, and I might have gone with a harsher hand on Ranier. [ A pause. ] And that is why I am not Inquisitor. You have always granted everyone a fair chance, even when they might not think they deserve it. Rather than ruling through fear or for your own ends, you seek to build a better world for everyone, be they elves, humans, or ex-templars that need to be reminded to take a moment for themselves.
[ She might not be able to see it, but he's smiling. ]
You are what an Inquisitor should be, and though I may not always agree with every decision you make at first, know that I will always stand by your side, as your commander and as your friend.
I could tell her. But...at this juncture, I wonder if it would be better if I leave her be.
[ It's been a long time since Cassandra has been so openly hostile with her. Cullen has the right idea of it, to treat it like she is starting again. Which, unfortunately, means walking on eggshells. ]
So long as she doesn't slap me in irons, I can do that. I really would like not to repeat such a scenario again.
[ Even if it is for Cassandra.
But even across the phone, Lavellan's smile echoes his own, and it is incredibly obvious. ]
I'm glad to give people another chance. We've been afforded that opportunity and we're lucky for it. Under other circumstances, I don't know if leniency would be possible. [ And she might not have been able to be the iron fist the Inquisition might have needed otherwise. ] I'm...sometimes glad I am the Inquisitor, if it means I can do these things to help people.
Thank you, Cullen. What you've said means a great deal to me. [ And it's lifted her spirits considerably. ] I cannot ask for a better commander or friend. I trust you'll tell me when-- No. If I should ever become similar to this other Inquisitor. I shouldn't have the title if it means all I am doing is serving myself.
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[ But she also isn't a Circle mage, never knew the true extent of lyrium poisoning or what it did to Templars. That was a side she had never delved into until entering the Inquisition. Had she been someone else, had she been a human or a Qunari, would this have changed how she felt?
She frowns. ]
She deserves that chance. Cassandra's worked hard for it, like anyone else. The Seekers can and will be something great with her guidance. I believe in her and the potential she can find.
[ Would she speak of that to Lavellan, though? ]
I will...try to talk to her. She seemed distant when I tried to speak to her in person and I'm afraid she doesn't trust me. [ Scratch that. She KNOWS Cassandra doesn't trust her. ] I hope that will change.
[ There's a pause, like she might hang up. But then-- ]
Cullen, do you think... Should I have been more demanding of the Inquisition? Should I have tried to be more authoritative with the troops or with the others or-- I don't know. More like an Inquisitor should be?
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[ Not that he's one for insubordination. ]
I will... continue to try and put in a good word for you. [ That didn't help much, now did it. ] Think of it... perhaps as though you are starting again, and Cassandra is almost as she was after we'd discovered you in Haven. It will take time. But, Maker-willing, it will change.
[ It might even be worse, truthfully, given how little Cassandra seems to think of this "Adaar". ]
Truthfully? [ A pause as he think things through. ] There have been times that I've disagreed with the leniency you've given some. I would have not offered the rebel mages such lax terms, and I might have gone with a harsher hand on Ranier. [ A pause. ] And that is why I am not Inquisitor. You have always granted everyone a fair chance, even when they might not think they deserve it. Rather than ruling through fear or for your own ends, you seek to build a better world for everyone, be they elves, humans, or ex-templars that need to be reminded to take a moment for themselves.
[ She might not be able to see it, but he's smiling. ]
You are what an Inquisitor should be, and though I may not always agree with every decision you make at first, know that I will always stand by your side, as your commander and as your friend.
voice;
[ It's been a long time since Cassandra has been so openly hostile with her. Cullen has the right idea of it, to treat it like she is starting again. Which, unfortunately, means walking on eggshells. ]
So long as she doesn't slap me in irons, I can do that. I really would like not to repeat such a scenario again.
[ Even if it is for Cassandra.
But even across the phone, Lavellan's smile echoes his own, and it is incredibly obvious. ]
I'm glad to give people another chance. We've been afforded that opportunity and we're lucky for it. Under other circumstances, I don't know if leniency would be possible. [ And she might not have been able to be the iron fist the Inquisition might have needed otherwise. ] I'm...sometimes glad I am the Inquisitor, if it means I can do these things to help people.
Thank you, Cullen. What you've said means a great deal to me. [ And it's lifted her spirits considerably. ] I cannot ask for a better commander or friend. I trust you'll tell me when-- No. If I should ever become similar to this other Inquisitor. I shouldn't have the title if it means all I am doing is serving myself.